Hello I am a 29 year old single mother of a wonderful little 5 year old boy who is the light of my life. I was crying last night because I feel I have reached the end, and my friend told me to post my story online and there are people who want to help people like me. I must say I feel so embarrassed to do this, but I have no one to turn to, no one to help me. So, this is my story.....
 
Last November, I was working full time, going to school, taking care of my son, my mother, and myself. I was also selling Mary Kay and Insurance on the side trying to make end meets. It finally was so overwhelming and I hit a major case of depression and I was let go from my full time job because they said I was too stressed. This was Christmas time and now I had lost my job. How was I going to pay the rent, utilities, and buy my son Christmas? I hit rock bottom. I lost our home and I was still trying to sell Mary Kay to help buy our food and his Christmas. I was lucky enough to have a friend who let us come and stay with her. Just when I thought things could not get worse they did I had a wreck and I had no insurance, and now I had no car. I borrowed other's cars and when I got my tax refund I got my car fixed (just enough to drive). I got my son and me a home and I got another job. Everything was going good for a little while. His dad who has never been consistent in his life had finally stepped up to the plate and was helping watch him when I worked. Then his dad got married in March and everything changed. He was trying to make me let my son come and live with them because he had him every weekend a few days during the week because I was at work. When I told him no he tried to keep my son and not give him back. The police would not even help me get him back. His father is not even listed on the birth certificate and they would not help me. I have been a mother and father and the only provider for my son for 5 years, and he just had been here for 2 months and he had more rights than I did. Well with my mom's help I "stole" my son back, and he hasn't seen his dad since. My son needs his dad more than anything~he is a boy, but because I did not give my son to them he refuses to help me help his son with the things he needs because I feel like my son is a burden to me. NEVER have I EVER felt MY son was a burden. He is the light of my life and I can not thank God enough for blessing me with him. Well when I left my job (it was either find another job, or lose my son~so I chose my son!) I did not have work for almost a month, and I have been behind ever since. I almost lost my car and I did the one thing I should not have done, but I did not have any other choice. I took out a payday advance. I have been paying on it since May and all I can pay is just the interest and it is not even paying off the loan. $62.00 every other week down the drain. We only have $20.00 a week to buy groceries. Some weeks we don't even have that. When school started I had to buy my son school supplies and clothes and pay our bills so I am now overdrawn $767.00 in my bank account. I am still two car payments behind and I had to let my insurance drop again. I had a company helping with my son's after school care and I got a letter last night and I have to pay $122 by the 14th or my son can not continue going there. I have no one to pick him up or no one to turn to help me get out of this mess. My credit is shot and I am not asking anyone to pay off my debt~I made it I need to be the one to fix it, but I just need a little help to get through this rough spot. I called his dad and begged and pleaded with him to help me buy groceries this week and help with the daycare expense and he told me that he would NOT give me a dime, plus he says he doesn't have a job, but they were on vacation when I talked to him. I know he is lying, but what can I do. He has me right where he wants me with nothing...the only other option I have is to let my son go live with them, so they can provide for him better than I can. That is just going to crush me and my son. He says I am his best friend and he can not live without me. Please help me someone. I do NOT want to lose my son, he is my life.